Pistachio Cardamom Hot Chocolate
Tell me your life in 15 songs- Part Two (read Part One)
The main reason I split this into more than one post was because I had to prepare myself to share the next songs. I hate to sound melodramatic but it kind of freaks me out to tell these stories. People can be very judgmental and I’m not great at putting it all out there. Like I said in my last post, I didn’t even intend to share these stories when I began compiling my favorite songs. I just began writing and it happened. I almost hit delete so many times but I’m rolling with it. In its own way this is cathartic.
Look in the mirror
She’s not there
This song is total chaos in a beautiful way. And it really captures the utter chaos of my life 8-9 years ago. Depression, self medicating, poor decision making, the works. But it wasn’t all bad news. One very positive event during this time was that I adopted a small kitten who was weaned too soon from her real mother. She’s still with me and is one of the loves of my life. Unconditional love and endless games of fetch can be excellent medicine.
Those evil natured robots
They’re programmed to destroy us
She’s gotta be strong to fight them
So she’s taking lots of vitamins
Cause she knows that it’d be tragic
If those evil robots win
I know she can beat them
That’s a lot of lyrics but it’s difficult not to paste in the entire song, quite honestly. This song isn’t about me. I mean, it can sort of be applied to my mid 20s and that’s the beauty of lyrics. But it’s mostly about Ann. She was a new friend in the city and we formed a wonderful friendship over the course of a year. She was a beautiful artist who fascinated me and pushed me out of my creative comfort zone. I was completely enamored with her unusual way of thinking and freedom of spirit. The Flaming Lips were her favorite band and the album she constantly listened to was Yoshimi Battles The Pink Robots. I still have the CD she made for me, custom drawn with graphic pink robots. In all honesty I still can’t hear this song without choking up which is kind of weird since it’s not a sad song. The evil robots won when Ann lost her battle with cancer. But the song is beautiful and I still love it. For the music, the lyrics and everything else.
Love will come through it’s just waiting for you
Love Will Come Through is the calm after the storm. This is my most played song in iTunes and I think I could listen to it on repeat for a very long time without growing bored. It’s a simple tune but I love it. After Ann passed away life began to settle down. My doctor diagnosed me with a minor condition that had been creating a lot of problems in my life. I was properly medicated for the first time and it was like seeing the world with a new set of eyes.
I’m not looking for absolution
Forgiveness for the things I do
But before you come to any conclusions
Try walking in my shoes
Things were moving in the right direction but I had a lifetime of bad habits to overcome. I needed one more big moment of clarity to fully put everything in perspective. I fell into a very unhealthy relationship with an emotionally manipulative person. For an entire year I let him walk all over me and compromise my own values. And finally because of him I realized I was worth more. You know how people say you can’t love anyone else until you love yourself? It’s very cliche but also so true. If he could hear me now I’d say thank you for helping me realize that I deserved so much better.
Used to be the one of the rotten ones
And I liked you for that
Now you’re all gone, got your make-up on
And you’re not coming back
The first time I heard this song I was at a Belle and Sebastian concert. I’d never heard of the opening act: Broken Social Scene. This is a supergroup from Canada with a bazillion members and good lord they put on amazing live show. From the moment they walked onto the stage I was spellbound and their set effected me so much I barely remember the main act. This ethereal song melted me, gave me chills, and became the theme song as I moved on from a very painful time in my life.
That’s all for now. I promise Part Three has a very happy ending and some more upbeat song selections. Shall we talk about the recipe?
I love the flavor combination of pistachios and cardamom. Last year I made pistachio cardamom cookies and to this day they’re one of my favorite dessert recipes on the blog. This particular recipe evolved from my love of homemade almond milk. I make it regularly but I also love to experiment with other nuts and ingredients (check out my homemade coconut milk). Pistachio milk is wonderful by itself with or without the cardamom. Use it in smoothies, cereal, even coffee. Or heat it up, throw in some cocoa and a few other ingredients and voila: pistachio cardamom hot chocolate. Vegan, dairy free and delicious. (disclaimer: the toasted marshmallow in the photograph is not vegan).
- 1 cup shelled, unsalted, raw pistachios
- 2 cups filtered water
- 2 cardamom pods
- 2 cups pistachio cardamom milk (see above)
- 1 1/2 tablespoons unsweetened cocoa powder
- 3 1/2 tablespoons light agave nectar or to taste
- 1/8 teaspoon ground cardamom
- 1/8 teaspoon vanilla extract
- pinch salt
- Cover pistachios in cold filtered water and refrigerate overnight. The next day, drain and rinse the pistachios. Add them to a blender or food processor with 2 cups filtered water and 2 cardamom pods. Puree on high speed for 1 minute.
- Drain pistachio milk through a nut milk bag or several layers of cheesecloth. Use within 3 days. Yields 2 cups.
- Heat pistachio cardamom milk over medium heat. Ladle a small amount of the milk into a bowl with the cocoa powder and whisk until smooth, then pour the mixture into the pistachio milk. This will prevent the cocoa from lumping.
- While the mixture is heating, whisk in agave nectar, ground cardamom, vanilla and salt. Once the mixture is hot, serve immediately.
More pistachio recipes
Savory Simple – Pistachio Cardamom Cookies
Savory Simple – Parsley Pistachio Pesto
Savory Simple – Fruit and Nut Bites
Joy The Baker – Dark Chocolate, Pistachio and Smoked Sea Salt Cookies
Lemons & Anchovies – Bourbon Maple Toasted Pistachios
Eclectic Recipes – Cranberry Pistachio Pudding Cookies